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For as long as you stand here, you've proven you are capable, and sublime. Dignitary of the high regard and respect you deserve. You are strong for going through it all and coming back out stood on both your feet. For all the times you've given up, you've come back with a willing bone in your body to try again. Give the lie to it, you're still here.

Calytrix, you are cared for. You are loved. Perhaps not by yourself, but look back. You're no demon or scum. You've just been told so. You believed it. Why?

Love yourself because you are loved. And care for yourself by dint of being revoked that privilege by your peers. Little by little, look at yourself.
Treat yourself kindly. Smile. You'll see there's love in under the loops. There's joy where you don't look.
Love yourself because I love you.

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Happy birthday, Synndicate!!!!!

I know how much you dislike your birthday, and I don't want to push a celebration further than what you're comfortable with, but I wanna say happy birthday anyway and put out whatever I want you to hear right here, because you deserve to be told so. You're 15 now!! You're my age wtf slow down bitch get back in the nursery o_O!! And that's 15 years of perseverance, love, care, of hardships, life throwing its boulders your way, but did that stop you? From what I've seen, no. You're on your two feet, you're here. And you're loved. You're vehement, brave, and outstanding. You're the strongest person I've ever met for going through 365 days 15 times with the same will, same passion, same talent, same love.

You're the most talented human being I've ever had the privilege of meeting. Sometimes I feel like I should get on my knees LMAO because I just genuinely can't believe someone like you is my partner, my best friend, my number one. I can't believe someone that would be my literal idol is talking to me everyday and playing games with me and sharing its,FUCKING, BEAUTIFUL ideas and artwork to me. Everytime I see the word 'creative' I think of you, and I mean that genuinely. I go back on our media and the folder of your art and am in awe by your talent and your skill and your everything. Whenever you tell me about Lethe, or anything about your characters, I wish that I could sit there and listen to you speak until we fall asleep, I'm again in awe with what your mind is capable of. You're going to do great things, and I'm so proud of you everyday for having the will to create, to write, to draw, to invent, and to change. You're a gem. I could never find anybody else with your originality and innovation. Keep doing what you do, love, I'll be rooting for you!

Not only are you talented beyond belief, you're also a wonderful human being. I'm so happy to have met you. And I'm so happy to have stuck with you for so long. Regardless of our mishaps, our arguments, whatever happened in the past and whatever differences we have, it doesn't distract from the fact that you're so special to me, and you've always been special to me. I'm gonna have a hard time letting go if the day comes where we have to part. And I hope to God that we don't ever have to separate, because I don't know what I'd do without someone like you by my side. It's routine now to wake up and text you immediately, and sleep making sure I've sent you something, and go through my day talking to you whatever chance I get or doing something that involves you whenever I can. Everytime that habit shifts, something feels so off -.- ...

You are a core memory. I will remember you for the rest of my days, and I'll think about the joy and love and care you've brought me. Even if a great majority of our days are repetitive, us doing the same things or playing the same games, not finding conversation topics, I don't mind as long as you're here. I don't care whatsoever as long as it's you. It'll always be you. You will forever be my number one.
You're strong willed nd resilient. You're tough. You don't easily falter at whatever is thrown towards you. You are opinionated (in a good way) and are passionate with your words and with your conversation. You are kindhearted, you're nice, you're a generous soul, even if I remember you said you're not keen on acts of service, you're still up to helping whenever you can. You can push forwards so far, you can strain yourself so much, you deserve the universe. And it's so unfair that you can't get what you want. I want to give you the world. You've tried so hard to keep our relationship stable, friendship or not, and you listen to me so eagerly. You take care of me and love me and I've never felt so loved in my life. I've never felt so comfortable than with somebody like you. You always try your best and I'm proud of you! ^.^

I love you.

More than anything else in the world.

And I'll always be by your side no matter what. I'll always be here to laugh with you, to joke with you, draw, play, talk with you. I'll be here anytime you need me, or anytime you need just about anything, I will always do my best to fulfill it for you. You deserve nothing but the best and I hope the best comes your way. I'm proud of you for pushing forward so long. I'm so so so proud of you for staying. You're so strong, my love. Here's to another year together, another year closer to holding you.
Treat yourself kindly. Smile. You'll see there's love. There's joy where you don't look. Love yourself because I love you.


Happy birthday, my angel! :D